Jaque is submitting this journal with permission on Marilyn’s behalf.  Jaque loved the journal because it is forthright, honest, and simple.

Scripture Reference:  Matthew 14:27-31 NKJV

But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.”  And Peter answered Him and said, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water.”  So He said, “Come.” And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, “Lord, save me!”  And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”

Lord, you often come in the 4th watch of the long night and often I do not recognize that it is you! The unexpected changes that come my way often bring fear and a “troubling” response until I can see and know it is you.

Yes Marilyn, I identify Myself to you for I want to replace your fear with assurance and hope. I arrive in your physical reality in new and unfamiliar ways, yet I always identify Myself quickly to bring you peace and “good cheer.”

Lord, I can so relate to Peter’s request…”if it is you”…followed by me telling you what you need to do to prove yourself to me. I so want to learn to clearly see you, to recognize you quickly, and to respond with relaxing trust, enlarged confidence and genuine celebration of who you are. Until I grow up in you, all I can say is, “I believe–help Thou my unbelief.”

Marilyn, I do not mind that you test the unfamiliar and unknown ways that I come to you in those dark moments, nor do I mind that you ask Me to empower you to do the impossible appearing things. It pleases me that you desire to draw close to Me whenever you recognize My presence in the middle of your fearful moments. I always want you to come to Me. I want to walk with you through all of your “troubled times.” I placed that desire within Peter’s heart. I placed the faith to believe in the impossible and the courage to do what had never been done before. I specialize in making a way where there is no way. The only mistake that Peter made in this story was he became momentarily distracted by the external circumstances. He allowed his eyes to focus on his physical reality versus locking in his focus on Me and Me alone. He stopped walking by faith (unchanging invisible) and began trusting what his eyes (sight) perceived as reality.

Lord, what I notice is that you reached out and saved him the moment he recognized his error and reached out to you. Even though you knew he was going to be distracted and sink, you did not deny his desire to walk towards you! You allowed him the experience, the opportunity to learn that you are more than enough to complete the work you’ve begun in us!

Mary Ann, it is not a matter of ‘what’ are you focusing but on Whom. Get your focus off the problem and focus on Perfect Love. I Am Perfect Love and Perfect Love casts out all fear. Fear has torment. Jesus’ work is finished in the earth. He ascended to the Father’s right hand. He is no longer in the earth. He sent Me, Holy Spirit, to take His place in the earth to continue His ministry and replicate it, in the earth. I live in the earth within you and all those who have repented of their sins and placed their complete trust and faith in the work of Christ on the cross and in hell [for the payment and forgiveness of] sin.

I Am Perfect Love. So, focus on Me. Come to Me and I will reveal to you and teach you Who I Am and I will reveal the Word of God to you. I will reveal Truth to you. I was sent to be your Comforter, Teacher, Helper, Strengthener, Best Friend, and even your Lover. I Am Perfect Love. Seek to know Me as a Person. Seek My Face, not My hand. Seek to know Me as intimately as you can possibly know Me and still live. I will come to you. I desire that you encounter Me, as a Person, and as Perfect Love. When you know Perfect Love, coming to Me, desiring Me, hungering for Me, yearning for Me, I will come to you.

Ask Me to show you My Perfect Love. I desire not only to show you My Perfect Love, but give you My Perfect Love, even My very Self. Ask Me how I desire you to lavish your love on Me, and as you give yourself to Me and lavish Me with your love, I will in turn, lavish all that I AM on you. Is anything too hard for God? I assure you nothing is impossible with Me. I AM GOD. I AM Mighty to Deliver.

Make it your aim, moment by moment to seek Me, desire Me. I will come to you and be found of you, but you must get your focus off your problem and circumstances. I do have a plan and a purpose for this and it shall bring Me Glory, for as Jesus finished all the work Father gave Him to do and Father was Glorified in the Son, He also has a work for you to do and a plan and purpose for good, not for evil , even a destiny for you to fulfill, to give you a future and a hope. So focus on Me. Even as Peter focused on Jesus, he walked on water, but when he saw the turbulent sea, he took his focus off Jesus and doubted and he began to sink. But even then, Jesus was right there to deliver, to rescue, and to save him from sinking.

When you know Perfect Love, intimately, you will know that you know you are truly loved by Me and that I delight in you and adore you, (which means to hold in highest esteem, reverence and awe) but also, that you can trust Me, believe Me, take Me at My Word and know I AM Faithful to My Word.) In finding and focusing on Perfect Love, you will also find your provision, healing, deliverance, safety, soundness, preservation, and peace. This is Salvation. I will never leave you, abandon you, betray you, abuse you, or forsake you for I AM Perfect Love and I love you with an everlasting love, perfectly.
If you will do as I am instructing you today, you will soar over your circumstances every time. I love you, so very much and desire you, to hold you in My Arms lavishing you and ravishing you with My Perfect Love. As you experience My Perfect Love, you will find that your faith will rise to meet whatever the circumstance in life you face. I will never give you more than you can bear and I will sustain you and make a way for you to escape, for I AM the Way of escape. So, change your focus. When you focus on Me you will change the way you think and perceive Me and you will be transformed and even transfigured. You countenance will shine and you will radiate My Perfect Love and Perfect Love never changes, for I cannot change Who I AM.

Your performance has nothing to do with it. I love you because I Am Perfect Love and there is nothing you can do about it. So seek Me and be tenacious in your seeking, like Jacob was when he wrestled with the Angel, for he was wrestling with Jesus Christ before He became incarnate and lived as a man on the earth. Jacob would not let Him go until He blessed him. Even so, be tenacious, and seek for Me with all your heart, and desire to love Me with all your heart, soul (emotions, will, intellect), mind (imagination or ability to envision) and all your strength (physical bodily strength), and all your being. Is not this the first Commandment?

If you do this, I will manifest Myself to you and you will encounter Me and know and experience that I AM your every need met. I love you. Do not lose heart or your hope or become anxious, fretful, worried or lose your peace. Focus on Me, says the Spirit of Grace, and I will show you not only My Self, but also My destiny for you and walk you through this trial step by step and each step will be a miracle. When you are delivered, I will be glorified and when you fulfill the plan and destiny I have for you in these last days, I will be glorified again. I love you Mary Ann, I love you.

Susan, cling to Me in the journey, through the journey and as the journey.  Trust that every portion of the journey is put to good use in My hands.  When you feel particularly brave, you even have My permission to trust that each portion of the journey is intended by Me.

When you feel resistant toward Me it’s okay to regret the resistance you feel – but remain gracious and remember that I use every lesson you learn to your own benefit and on behalf of others. Were you not experiencing all that you are experiencing (while in this process of developing this undivided trust), then others would miss the tangible example of Who I am and how I operate. Those whom the Father has given Me are the living hope of and for others. The diversity of how I unfold in each of My children is reason enough to stay clear of the tendency to put Me in a box!

I will always complete the circle in you, Susan.  I bring you from resistance to compliance, unwillingness to willingness, and disobedience to obedience.  My reign over your heart is proven and My surety is made visable to others thereby.  What I have done in one I will do in another.  The circumstances and methods differ but the outcome is the same – the emergence of Christ in you, living His life as your very own. Each person’s process is intimately unique but bears the common earmark of my continual influence over the result.

Along the way you may find that many things are contrived as directives that do not proceed from My heart. There is a heavy influence, manipulation, and misuse of authority in any religious model. You can always know when it is  “My request” because I will not leave you alone in the process it takes to get you from unwillingness to willingness.

There is no need to “obey” out of guilt or obligation. Obey out of the surrender that natually occurs when My presence effectually melts your fear and resistance. Trust me to do this for you.  Contrived obedience will only serve man and exhausts the “obedient one.”

Yes, I use even the “coerced obediences” and “imaginary commands” to complete My work in you. As your awareness of Me grows you begin to recognize the difference between external influences and the internal ones that proceed from Me. All is really well, Susan, for I am good AND sovereign!

I lead to and I lead away.  I lead in and out of pasture.  I ask one to enter and another to exit, one to do and another not to do.  Intimacy with Me is your safegaurd against the conscious and unconscious manipulation of man.  Union awareness offers the assurance that I am your Purpose.  My authority takes the liberty to exibit Myself through you uniquely, distinctly, and specifically. Allowing for distinction in the way I will lead, guide, and direct one child over another breeds confidence in a very big God!

Father, I see the confinement of cookie cutter Christianity. You work in so many mysterious ways. How often have I imposed the ‘way You are in me’ upon another? As if to suggest that their steps should look the same as mine.

Lord, be Yourself through me…even if it seems so different that it makes my teeth chatter!

Even so, the Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we do not know what we should pray, if we are to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings which baffle speech to utter; but he who searches the hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because it is by God’s will that he intercedes for those whose lives are consecrated to God. We know that God intermingles all things for good for those who love him, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he knew long ago he long ago designed to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the first born among many brothers. Those whom he long ago designed for this purpose, he also called; and those whom he called he put into a right relationship with himself; and those whom he put into a right relationship with himself he also glorified.

Romans 8:26-28 AMP

Father, through my own missteps, I do sometime forget what I look like in the mirror. And when I check back, it’s not always because I want to confirm that I am seeing You staring back, but to see what others are seeing. Why, when My heart knows that I am being transformed into the beautiful perfection of Christ, do I still care about what the others see?

Belinda-Marie, to be reflective of My son, is a process. We walk this journey together. It is necessary to pause with frequency and do a self-check of what you look like. This serves as a reminder of what you are looking for and of what you want to reflect to the world. This is an opportunity to adjust the things that may be out of place, and it’s also an opportunity to admire the progress we’ve made.

Looking at what My Love has done in your life is not done in vainglory…but encourages you to keep going. What happens when you see something amiss? You often reach for the wrong product to fix the situation. A hair out of place might simply need the benefits of a comb, but instead you insist on layering on the hairspray. You then will have the look you desire, but now lack the authenticity of what is real. It makes you stiff.

While doctrine can cut you down like scissors and reverse the growth you’ve had…throwing up a wall against the ideas of the church can “hairspray” you out of flexibility and your own personal growth. I gave the Holy and Inspired Word of God to all of man! The vast majority will pick it up and examine it, but most will not see authenticity of its truth.

While there are certainly those of have become students of the Word and may retain more knowledge than others; there are also those who have become Hearts of the Word. This means that they may not “know” as much, but what they do know; they embrace it and strive to put it into action. That is the difference between knowledge and wisdom. While knowledge alone is like a flame without a fire, there is gain in both knowledge and wisdom when combined and balanced…and there are a selected few who have both.

What about you? I gave you a personal relationship with My Son. In Him, you have the gift of discernment. Turning to Him is wisdom of the most high quality. So do not fear listening to or considering everyone’s points of view. As with each Bible Study, devotional, doctrinal statement…you have the ability to read, ponder, check it by what you do know for sure is true (the Word), pray, & listen.

I will guide you always. Then you come to a place where you rest in peace of truth. You can then look at the mirror and smile when you see the growth. You can be confident in who you are in Me, no matter what others may suggest. We have had times when we’ve needed to bring out the array of tools and do a drastic makeover…and there are times to come when we’ll perhaps do the same…but where you now, today, you have become a solid warrior, a loving heart, and a confident treasure who has learned the value of bringing the Christ that’s inside out.We stop at the mirror and do some minor touch-ups…slow and steady…but surely, we will reach that destination of perfect, authentic, and free-flowing beauty.

Father, thank you for the gift of discernment through the Holy Spirit. JIM (Jesus in me) is my one and only go-to when I have reason to pause and take inventory of myself. I understand that even with godly-people, while their intentions may be good, that they do not have 100% of the answers. 100% came only in Christ. I understand that it is important to receive the words of my church and just like with any other godly, yet fallible human, I always must turn into myself…the Christ in me…to seek the truth, by way of the Word of God.

…and then stand firm, in love, with what I show you, Belinda-Marie! It is not a war between each other out there. You do not need to argue truth, as Christ won that argument on the Cross. Truth has been defended forever! Always be kind to each other. Yes, Father! The most difficult part, when left to my own self, but quiet easy when JIM stands forward! -Amen!

“Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit? to be out of your sight? If I climb to the sky, you’re there! If I go underground, you’re there! If I flew on morning’s wings to the far western horizon, You’d find me in a minute— you’re already there waiting! Then I said to myself, “Oh, he even sees me in the dark! At night I’m immersed in the light!” It’s a fact: darkness isn’t dark to you; night and day, darkness and light, they’re all the same to you.”

Excerpt from Psalm 139 The Message

Jaque, darkness isn’t dark to Me because I don’t just dwell in light; I am the Light; I am consuming fire—the Creator of Light. I am God “Within but not enclosed, without but not excluded, above but not raised up, below but not depressed. I am wholly above presiding, wholly beneath sustaining, and wholly within filling.” (Hildebert of Lavardin)

Lord, how can I comprehend your being everywhere at all times? I am desperately dependant on you for every breath, thought and answer. I want to recognize you in the dark and in the light; I want to SEE You everywhere and feel You living within me. So if you are everywhere present, does your presence in hell make hell what it is?

Jaque, I am a consuming fire but dark souls’ make hell what it is. Fire has a different affect on dark hardened souls than it does on humble souls transformed by its light. If the noonday sun shines on rotting flesh the stench is worse because of the heat; right? Jasmine under the noonday sun smells like heaven, but putrid flesh like hell. The sun never changes, so how I am everywhere present depends upon that which I am shining.

Be assured Jaque, there is not one molecule of space from which I am absent. Realize then that My omnipresence and omniscience cause your faith to begin. Also realize that I am not imagined presence. I am everywhere present right now. Focus on Me until you mature to the place of no longer guessing about Me but knowing Me. Here I am filling you with Myself—equally present within and without all time and space.

And how blessed all those in whom you live, whose lives become roads you travel; They wind through lonesome valleys, come upon brooks, discover cool springs and pools brimming with rain! God-traveled, these roads curve up the mountain, and at the last turn—Zion! God in full view!

Psalm 84:5-7 The Message

Sara, life is a journey and you are traveling with Me—with a deep consciousness of Me, of My Life and My Presence within you. Life IS a journey. In this journey you are constantly moving along. You cannot standstill, it’s impossible, it IS a journey! You will see different things as we travel, different places, different people, different problems, different blessings, different opportunities and different resting places.

Your life is a road that I am traveling on. On this road, because I am with you, I will experience the things you experience and I will help you adjust to all inharmonious circumstances. I will show you the good and lead you to the springs and pools of refreshing that I have for you. These pools show you the way things really are, the big picture. They will cleanse your heart and soul and give you the peace and joy you need.Remember, My Presence with you is the green pasture you can rest on, and it is always present for you.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters, He makes me lie down in green pastures.

Psalm 23:1,2

If you let my word be living and active in you daily, this will be your daily stream and it will quench your daily thirst.

Sara, you have learned to never live off of past experiences. Because I am in you and with you and living through your life, there is always something new to teach and show you. This is relationship, this is life itself—a deep consciousness of Me every now moment. Yes, you do remember what I taught you before but more than anything you need to talk to Me now, daily so you are reassured of My Presence and so I can prepare you for this day and for what’s coming next.

Looking back at past experiences is a strange way to live! It’s like walking backwards. How will you avoid potholes that lie ahead if you’re not looking forwards and listening to my current instruction for where we are right now? Self-pity is just like sitting down in the middle of the road and crying because you are tired. Sara, my sweet, when you’re tired, don’t sit in the middle of the dusty road causing a blockage for everyone. Come aside with Me to the green grass and the still waters and I will give you rest, I will ease, relieve and refresh your soul so we can move on joyfully. It’s not wrong to be tired but you must recognize and handle it correctly. You will always have My Presence, keep choosing obedience to whatever I have for you and you will see fruit, its guaranteed.

Thank you Father! Your words bring comfort to my soul. You will never leave me and you know all that lies ahead. As this road of mine curves up the mountain, thank you that I know that at the last curve, You will be in full view! I am journeying with you into Your heart. Amen.

Every good gift and every perfect ( free, large, full) gift is from above; it comes down from the Father of all [that gives] light, in [the shining of] Whom there can be no variation [rising or setting] or shadow cast by His turning [as in an eclipse]. And it was of His own [free] will that He gave us birth [as sons] by [His] Word of Truth, so that we should be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures [a sample of what He created to be consecrated to Himself]. James 1:17-18 (AMP)

Everything is God;  it’s all His Story Jaque, of My own will I have loved you from who I am. I can’t not love you, because I am love. Your ability to love (Me or anyone else truly) comes because of your receptivity to My love. If you didn’t respond I would still love you, but you wouldn’t know it. You would miss out, but I couldn’t let that happen, because I love you.

You know Me because I drew you and you responded. Would you think of Me as a loving God if I didn’t draw you to what is best for you, even if that happens to be Myself? I’m willing to bring you to Me the easiest way you will come. Does not My luring you, calling you, pressing you, and even using the threat of hell should you not respond demonstrate My love for you? If I didn’t do these things wouldn’t you think of Me as unloving? I’ll use any measure (according to who I am) to draw you to Myself. (All of God does all that God does)

Does that mean I’m forcing you to love Me? By no means. You have a choice. Many have resisted and taken the journey to hell. Still, I will that all would be saved, because I am love.

Father, I like who I am as a loved creature, and I don’t like who I was as an unloved creature. Even though you always loved me, I was loved without tangible knowledge of the truth. My head knew you loved me but my heart was far from you.

I never experienced your tangible, touchable presence until I let go of my preconceived ideas about your love and just let You love me. I see that even Christians living on the fringes of your love sense a hell that is far too close for comfort.

You want more for us. Thank you. Wanting me, You pursued me again and again. I was caught up trying to earn your love with religious good works and You used my husband (before his death) to pursue me. Through him you showered me with more love than I had ever experienced. I felt smothered sometimes and didn’t know how to respond, but I learned.

Now I can see, hear, smell, taste, and touch your love. Now I want more of You Lord. I will never quit wanting to experience You for who You are. Yes, I feel eternity creeping into me like leaven. I’ve tasted enough to realize that I am a first fruit of what You have consecrated for Yourself. Enjoy me Lord, for I am certainly going to keep enjoying You. Thank You, thank You, and thank You!

That God is good is taught or implied on every page of the bible and must be received as an article of faith as impregnable as the throne of God. It is the foundation stone of all sound thought about God and is necessary to moral sanity. To allow that God could be other than good is to deny the validity of all thought and end in the negation of every moral judgment. If God is not good, then there can be no distinction between kindness and cruelty, and heaven can be hell and hell heaven.

A.W. Tozer – Knowledge of the Holy

As I reread this journal I can’t help but think of the following verse:

He who is holy will see that you are holy; but to the man whose way is not straight you will be a hard judge.”

2 Samuel 22:27 (BBE)

The verses I journalized from were Psalm 145:9,14-16, Job 38:25-27, 39-41, Matthew 5:45.

Jaque, all expectation is predicated upon My goodness—the ground of all anticipation. I am good, and I do not force My attention upon you. It’s easy to have you in My thoughts at all times, but if you would know Me you need to direct your focus towards goodness. Also, if you would be welcomed as a Prodigal, you must come as the Prodigal came.

Your attitudes determine how you experience My reception of you. If you expect goodness you will soon see that I am not slow to give it. But if you expect harshness you will find Me cold and aloof. Your heart determines how you know Me. To the humble heart I am good. In My goodness I show that to live well and be happy means expecting Me in all goodness and favor. It means carrying an uplifting attitude toward Me.

My word shows how good I am, even though your attitude can either reject or receive it. You choose how to know Me Jaque. If you choose Life you choose Me in goodness but if you choose death you choose dark moods and negative outcomes. Yes, because I am good you can move away from negative states.

Choice Jaque. As to how you will know Me is yours to make. This is My gift to you. Choice; the rudder of your ship. Where will your soul sail today? Into seas of goodness or onto seas of tumult? Choose this day how you will serve your Master. Let goodness open the eyes of your heart so you can serve in the light of My goodness. Then nothing but “goodness” will be your experience—no matter what.

Father, I wholly devote my heart and mind to you. Thank you for choosing me to know goodness and to be utterly delighted by it. I expect you to present Yourself as awesomely good. My attitude toward You is elevated above the clouds. Thank you, thank you, and thank you forevermore. Amen.

Belinda-Marie, My goodness is poured into every detail of My creation. Nothing is insignificant to the creator. Looking at a painting, one sees the big picture. You may see a bird soaring over the mountain top that towers over the roaring waters below. The painter sees each feather on the bird. He sees each tree that clothes the mountain top. He counts the number of waves white with foam. The creator takes intricate care in the details, to leave no stone unnumbered.

Every crevice of every rock, I placed there with My own hands. Every blade of grass, I hand painted it’s very own shade of green…no two exactly alike. Crystal snowflakes fall to the earth, placed precisely where I told them to go. The bird to your immediate left, sitting on the tree is following My instructions. The same sun that bakes the desert is providing only light in the arctic. Waves are dancing to the song I sing. Cattle wait with joy to fulfill My purposes. The fish are swimming to My destination. The branches are swaying to My breath. The stars have individual wattage to vary the degree of light exactly and according to My will.

Every detail, every movement, was ordained by Me. I have taken the utmost care of My good creation. Oh, Belinda-Marie, do you consider the lilies? How much more do I love you, My very good creation. My delight in My creation is dull in contrast to what I see when I look at you. Oh, how much I love you! I count and keep record of the hairs on your head. I assign tasks to each cell of blood that pumps through your veins. I place upon you distinguished markings in freckles and lines, to set you visually apart from another. I refresh your eyes by telling them to blink. I equip you with emotion to outwardly feel.

Do trees experience happiness? Do they hurt when they crack? Are they allowed to cry? No, because I saved the very best of My goodness for the one I love the most. Not the goodness that I have or possess…but the goodness that I AM! I am happy, I hurt, I cry! I would not give that part of Myself to something merely created. I reserve the best of My goodness for the very good of my creation. You are gooder than good!

Again, I do not have goodness, I AM goodness, and there is no besting Me. Thus, I do not say “the best of My goodness.” I chose to give My children the best because out of all of My vast, endless, wonderful creation, you are the treasure of My heart. I did not send My only Son to be beaten, bludgeoned, spat on, humiliated, and sacrificed so that I may have the prettiest of flowers to look at, or the beautiful kitten to delight in.

I will surround Myself with creation but it is you I long to embrace in heaven. It is you that I sacrificed for. I fill you with My Spirit so that you may have a taste of what is to come and so that I may ever prepare your soul. Time is near and I have unlimited seating in the heavenly arena, with more than enough to go around for eternity. Use the days I have given to fill these seats. My goodness abounds and is fueled at My core with the greatest love that man has never known.

Father God, my soul waits for You. Lord I pray that the day will come soon, but no sooner than that of Your will. I pray for the outward expression of the love that You have shown me, and that it will be a beacon of hope to someone in the dark. I ask for the wattage of your brightest star so that anyone who may stop to look at me, will only see You. Father, more than watchmen wait for the morning…more than watchman wait for You. My soul waits! -Amen

Lord, I see you alive in me no matter what is happening in my life and no matter how I’m feeling at any given moment; how you are seen through me, however, IS MY CHOICE.

If I choose continual surrender to the recognition of Your presence with me and in me, I will always know you as Life being poured out through me to others. Lord, I love the life that I have, and the circumstances you’ve given me in which to live it. I love to honor you and I am honored with your continual presence. Jesus, I absolutely adore you!

As time goes by I am more aware of the fact that your life in me looks just like me. I have this treasure in an earthen vessel…the vessel you chose to give me.

The only problem I’ve ever had stemmed from not trusting in your TOTAL goodness. Yet you’ve proven through countless answered prayers how good you really are…and there’s still more to come!

Under much tyranny the mind of the flesh has tried to hold me back. Still I see how you used Truth to press me toward the mark of the high calling. Life is full of paradox; your love works through me “just as I am” and yet continues to transform my personality into the image of Christ. From what you’ve personally taught Holy Spirit, I finally accept myself just as I am. That’s a real big thing! I no longer introspect to find fault with myself, but to acknowledge my sin and your once-for-all forgiveness. This takes the emphasis off me and puts it onto your finished work, enabling me to receive and give more grace to others. I am finally persuaded that you are able to complete what you started in me!

Jaque, I adore you. Keep looking My way.

“Respond to God’s Way”

Jaque, My acceptance (of you) is what makes you righteous. Your only real choice is to respond (or not) to what I DID. I wanted to accept you, so I sent Christ to make a Way. Your response to what I did is your faith; it is the Way you return to My love.

If you would love others AS THEY ARE you need to accept My love for you AS YOU ARE. Any other Way is not unconditional. I work in you the will (want) to do what I want. Genuineness stems from wanting what I want. If it’s not in your heart to do it, then it’s not of Me, for I give you the desires (wants) of your heart. When you choose to respond to what I’ve worked in, you will genuinely want to work it out. This is the way and it’s what I want; a genuine Christian busy working out her own salvation!

Father, again I accept your acceptance. I understand that each of us has our own history to deal with, but also, that you chose to glorify yourself through frail human vessels. When we are WEAK, then you are STRONG.

Jaque, do you understand the implications here? I want you to live the life YOU WANT TO LIVE. I am not a God who wants to send you off into some missionary’s jungle unless you “want” to go there! But if I knew you were suited for it, then I would place the “I want to go” inside your heart! How do you think I got you to Kansas? I developed the will to do and to be in your heart before you made the request to re-marry and be part of another man’s life.

Lord, your Way never fails.

Jaque, I want you to live the life you have; you are suited for the setting in which you live. You see, I am perfectly compatible with humanity; humanity is capable of displaying the divine nature. I demonstrated this through Christ, and then I sent the Holy Spirit to carry on the demonstration through you and others who belong to Christ. Keep coming Jaque; keep noticing the new desires growing in your heart, like your current desire to understand how the legacy of Jesus “healing them ALL” is still the desire of the One who is the same yesterday, today and forever.

So be it Lord. Place your wants in my heart until I can’t stand NOT to have them. When the “want” in me starts pressing through doors I would otherwise not have thought about prying (praying) opened, we are going to have more of Your kingdom brought to the earth.